Thin blue line

I took my second pregnancy test today. The first was last month when my period was two weeks late. I was going to wait until my period was due this time but finally gave in today. It was negative of course.  Which of course proves nothing because I took it too early. 

Technically my period is due about Tuesday but that depends whether I was ovulating last week. So I might go another week after this before it shows up. Another whole week of playing am I, aren’t I? Meh. But, it will be ok. The thing is, I don’t have any symptoms any more/feel like I’m pregnant. Since the cramping in the wee small hours of yesterday morning I’ve had no real symptoms except a bit of discomfort in the abdomen. My breasts a very, very slightly tender when they get man-handled by thehusband but not really – again, could be a period coming on. I don’t even feel tired and only the teensiest bit nauseous (really, I could be imagining it). In fact, I feel pretty damn good compared to last week. So chances are I really was just ill last week.  Also I read that too much folate can cause nausea and bloating. I’ve been taking folate supplements and there’s folate in my breakfast cereal. How much is too much? It could explain the nausea. A virus could explain my temperature and tiredness. Cramps – heck, it’s my crappy period.

Have decided to look on the bright side (after having a few reality check moments re being a mum) – as much as I want kids, my life is going to be majorly changed, it’s going to be hard work – so every month I take to conceive is another month of freedom Of course I say this now – if I don’t conceive after a few more months I’m sure I’ll be well and truly over the freedom stuff. So I’m kind of in a zen space about it at the moment which is good. Maybe I shouldn’t be in such a hurry to change our life – things are good at the moment and a baby will arrive when it arrives.  

Anyhoo…

I was using one of those new fangled digital tests too btw – fancy.  For next time though I bought an old fashioned type because if I’m going to be regularly testing and getting negatives I can’t afford to keep paying $20 for two tests.

waiting

So – after doing a bit more research I am crossing my fingers that the ovulation-esque discharge I had earlier in the week was actually due to the cervical plug forming or other random discharge.

Of course I woke up last night at about 2 am with cramps – so my first thought was, crap my period is coming, but then I remembered that cramps could be due to the uterus shifting and also, they didn’t feel exactly like period cramps and also went away a lot easier. However I couldn’t get to sleep after that and was awake for at least 2 hours. Still – if it was a menstrual cramp I should get my period in a few days (or not – sigh). I’ve decided to test on either Monday or Tuesday (depending on what my body’s doing). I could test now but if it’s too early I’ll get a negative result and I’d rather be sure my negative is really a negative.

I guess I’m concerned that I’m just reading too much into my body and if I give myself the excuse that I tested too early then I’m just going to prolong the agony.

Maybe I’ve just had a virus and now I’m getting my period? Or maybe I’ve just had a virus, then ovulated and my period won’t show for another week and a bit.

PS: I am sure the aeola circle around the nipples look bigger – on one breast more than the other too…hmm…lopsided.

Now I’m ovulating??

The mucous is here. So what the heck’s been wrong with me then? I’m tired and have a temperature most days, feel a little nauseous in the tum in the mornings…if I’m not pregnant, then ack!

You’d think I’d be bonking like a crazy person. Except NOW of course we can’t for other reasons.  #$%#$# Hold on little egg!

Waiting…

So – we’ve been trying. And after the first couple of times the excitement is wearing off of HAVING to have sex tonight because I may be ovulating. My cycle can be irregular – sometimes its 30 days with ovulation as predicted, other times, like last month my cycle was 6 weeks with spotting when I should have been ovulating, followed a few weeks later by an actual ovulation. This month, when I need that gross egg white goop, nada, but on the other hand I haven’t had the spotting either, so maybe with the sperm etc I just didn’t notice. I had the crankies last weekend which could have been a symptom of ovulation.  

Anyway I’ve been feeling tired all week and I’ve been all ‘ooh! I hope this means I’m pregnant’ – feeling extra tired yesterday and today. Then today I got a really high temperature – on my stomach and forehead.  I don’t know if it means something hormonal, or if I’m sick or what.  I’ve had a bit of forehead temperature through the week though too. I read that after ovulation you have a rise in temperature and also if you’re pregnant your basal body temperature remains high. So…fingers crossed.

We’re still having teh intercourse every couple of days though, just in case.